I realized today that one of the things I really miss from having just one child is the opportunity (or maybe ability) to be able to analyze and individualize every little thing you do or your child does. I was thinking about this today while I was picking up Accalia's clothes from one of her 250 daily wardrobe changes and thinking back to how much I loved being able to organize her clothes or buy her a new outfit and just put a lot of thought into what she was going to wear. I remember that dressing her was such a highlight when she was a baby! Then I put some of Cole's clothes away and realized I probably wouldn't remember half of the stuff he has and that I just want him to be dressed but don't really put much thought into it.

Now the clothes is just one example - and a pretty superficial one at that - but it just got me to thinking about how I could think about every tiny little interaction with Accalia and really concentrate on it and heck, probably write a 25 page paper about it :) But now it seems that as long as I make it through the day and we've mostly had a fun, positive and loving day that it's good. Of course it's good, but sometimes I just miss being able to think about it all so much - if that makes any sense.

Obviously the more kids you have the less time you have to sit and expound on every little goo and gaa. But I don't think that means your day has to turn into a blur and you have trouble remembering what happened. Sometimes I look down at Cole and am completely shocked that he's almost 5 months! This is just a good reminder for me to practice more mindful parenting and to live in the moment. Which leads me to a book plug: Everyday Blessings: The Inner Work of Mindful Parenting by Jon and Myla Kabat-Zinn.